Out of the Question

A year’s worth of planning fled my thoughts in panic as I tensed on the couch opposite her, my mind teetering between willing myself to say the words and thinking I never would. Suddenly, I got the bright idea that this moment shouldn’t be dire or dour. Hmmm...what's the most celebratory way to do this?

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Sarah Boorboor
Everything Changes, Even Our Moms

In those first years, she only spoke about my dad in the context of a nightmare she kept having. She would hear the bell and descend the stairs only to find him waiting behind the door. What made my mom wake in a cold sweat, was the exact thing I silently prayed for each night. And so, we didn’t talk about it. 

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Sarah Boorboor
Is There Something in the Coffee?

As Evalina pumped me for details about the wedding, I pumped Evalina for details about her coffee-ground reading abilities. How long had she been doing it? How did she know how to read them? Evalina just smiled at me like an elderly woman smiles at a young child. 

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Sarah Boorboor
The Fear of Forgiving my Father (and Myself)

One winter, when my parents still owned their house on the hill, I was driving downhill in the lavender 2002 Corolla my father had bought on my behalf with my savings bonds. I had lost control of the car on the ice and suddenly imagined myself sliding off the road into the trees ahead. For a split second, I was scared...but this fear was different.

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Sarah Boorboor
Hope Floats Across an iPhone Screen

I wake up and immediately reach for my phone. Will there be a message this morning? I turn it over to find a text from a friend and the latest update from Didi. I place the phone face down, wait a few more minutes, and then reach for it again.

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Sarah Boorboor